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Tuesday 19 February 2019

Time was a masterpiece in an art gallery- Pricey, upscale, beautiful







The role of Time in our life. I am not talking about the Time as referred to in Physics. But as a patient, as a caregiver, as a human being, as a daughter, as a lover.

The aspect it plays, how we are running ahead or behind time, time as a continual reminder, time as a witness, time as a beholder, time as an omnipotent agent and time as a healer.   

Every act of ours is modulated by a Time Watch, the pulse of each beat impacts our life at this crucial phase, from detection to the journey, till the journey.

We are chasing time, each one of us in our own way.


The Time Theory  and the  Early Detection



Early detection has always paved the path for better diagnosis and treatment. The earlier the stage, choices of having treatment options are always enhanced.

There are cancers that have screening tests and may be symptoms are more evident. Hold on to the signals the body gives, catch those minor signs, we all know we are mortals but having said it’s an unmusical reality to realize the truth.  
Maybe those little flicks are sometimes an indicator of an underlying concern. Go for a checkup man! And that’s also a loud bell to myself (a coward, an antagonist, an unchivalrous with regards to visiting a doctor)My heart kicks an extra beat or rather sinks to oblivion when I am in the medical room, apprehensions are my soulmate….I  imagine a lot. Especially in India, we are lagging behind the concept of routine check-ups due to many reasons. The fault lies within us. I feel absolutely a doomed individual when it comes to regular check-ups. Time mind it, plays hard.

Bile Duct cancer, unfortunately, does not throw many signals.

Dad had yellow eyes, itchy skin, weight loss. We never knew jaundice is a symptom of cancer. 'Obstructive jaundice' as termed, unfortunately, It was the last stage.

The cycle of  Time comes in  two folds here

The momentum suddenly fluctuates between “ the hold on time” and  “fleeting time”. Time is a transient concept.

See the link below↓

Early detection and Timely intervention -Magnifies the scope of recovery

 I am not a doctor, but everything I write is through my experience whatever I could gather miniscule. Every event and incident in our life, leave us with a better understanding and insight into many things we never think may fall upon us.
If not enlightened we can be far more aware to decide on to the potential treatment plans, investigate curative and palliative methods, make a treatment methodology program, arrange funds, spin a yard with time and make the best out of each fragile seconds.
  

Time- The journey





The calendar, the clock, the dates in the prescription, the dissection of time through years, months, days, minutes, seconds have been a  constant reminder that we are moving through the journey. Ahead of pace, each day at a time. Reeling under the time concept, I recognized the concept of time in an entirely new way. 

From diagnosis to treatment, the most evident thing was a wholesome underlying factor of organizing them in a way that we could get the most of it. The very key factor, in this case, was holding on to every bit without ignoring any signal, timely access to medical supervision, on the spot, hands-on mode to be functional throughout. Every morning it used to be a new day. Hopes pinned up for a better day. If not hopes what exactly do we rely on.

So the routine of going through all the ordeals every day goes on but the crux of understanding the gravity of the disease unknowingly bumps up every time. Dad was quite a fighter, denial had been always his mode of sustenance or rather a survival. Fever, pains, chills, was a routine offshoot, but if gauged on a broader scale it was still good times, convenient times, stable times. I fell in love with Time...unscrupulously, hopelessly.



Cataloging Time




In our times we have better clinical investigations to meter down the span of time we have, though there is something beyond the human scope. A prescribed time is what the medical fraternity gives us, beyond, behind and accurate is what God gifts us. 

We are given choice in every step of life, identifying it is our own call. As a caregiver, as a daughter, as a human being, I too had many delusions in life during crisis mode, we all have unless we don’t fall into the spot, we don’t know how to set the remote of survival.  When we know the clock has been set, how do we make use of every minute, every second, it's messy, it's the end of the world in every way but still, let hope be our savior.



  1. Sketch the priorities
  2. Underline the important tasks of each day
  3. Corner out specific time - Specific time that infers to quality and quantity
  4. Edge out the most important and regular chores
  5. "Leave aside mode" ON, live every ounce


Certain things can be postponed. Hold on- to time, people, and moments we all know why.  Yes, they don’t return while everything does.

The extraction of the crux from the rest 

It is where the duality strikes. Quality or quantity. 
The fact that with life, not giving any commitments we are all legalized to create our own set of happiness within the frame of time. 
Chemo was not an option for us. Yes, quality of life was. So the real chaos began now. 3 months, 6 months, 2 years,5 years that’s a different story, let's make it big, let’s create a larger than life screen. Hold on mode starts.

Please refer to the link↓


Time was a masterpiece in an art gallery- Pricey, upscale




The beginning of the best time is when we glorify it in every way. I had never asked my Dad what has been the luckiest day in his entire life. I also asked him if he had a crush after marriage, if he missed someone, if he wanted to talk about his best day,  If  he mourned about a moment, if he cherished one thing, if he longed for a specific occasion, his cravings, his longings, his wishful thoughts, his agonies, his mischiefs. 

Confession box with his daughter, how beautiful did it sound. Time suddenly became a piece of art, beautiful, pricey, upscale.

Immortalizing the Time concept- God or demon,




Rewind, backtrack, undo, backup, flashback - Time. Immortalize it like a God or maybe a demon.

Time as healer

Now, as I stand there all by myself, a battle of 14 months, of all the experiences I counted, I am waiting for this when Time heals me forever.

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3 comments:

  1. So beautifully put!!! Proud of you always.

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